Did God Really Say?

This isn’t the post I set out to write. The post I set out to write is one I’ve been working on for over a week, and although I feel like I’m supposed to write it, I need to write it, the words aren’t coming easily. After sitting with it for a while, I think it’s one of those things that needs more time . . . time in prayer . . . time in the Word . . . time to process.

So here we are. Did God really Say? I was reading Colossians 3 this morning, and this particular section of Colossians specifically speaks to putting to death our carnality and putting on the things of Christ. But as I was reading about those things that should be to death, I heard, “Is that what God really meant? Did He really say that?”

Woah . . . we’re stopping this runaway train right here and now and getting off. Let’s take a second to look at another chapter 3 of the Bible, Genesis Chapter 3 where the serpent, aka Satan, straight out of the starting gate says to Eve, “Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden’?” (Genesis 3:1)

Did God really say?

Satan isn’t original nor is he very creative, but the sad truth is, this phrase has been working on the human race pretty much forever. Now more than ever in our society we deal with issues that our carnal minds want to call “right” and “okay” when the Bible pretty clearly calls them “sin”. And I’m not immune. None of us are. Which is why I daily have to press in to God. I have to seek His truth above all else even when it means that some people aren’t going to like it. Even when it means that the “unfriend” or the “unfollow” buttons might be pushed more than not. Not just in the difficult moments but in all the moments, the easy and the routine and the mundane, because I think those are where and when we let our guard down. That’s not to say, I speak truth in a spirit of meanness and vindictiveness because God had something to say about that too, but I have to stand for truth even though it might not make everyone happy. To do any less would be a lie.

Did God really say? If His word says it, whether we like it or not, the issue is settled.

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Oh Be Careful Little Mouth What You Say

“In the multitude of words sin is not lacking, But he who restrains his lips is wise. The tongue of the righteous is choice silver; The heart of the wicked is worth little? The lips of the righteous feed many, But fools die for lack of wisdom.” Proverbs 10:19-21 NKJV

I opened my Bible app this morning and there was Proverbs 10:19. It’s amazing how one, seemingly small, scripture can have such huge ramifications if we allow it.

“In the multitude of words sin is not lacking . . . “

How often do I say too much? How often do I speak the truth, not in love but out of some misguided need to set people straight? Even as I write this, I have to ask myself if I’m measuring my words and speaking truth that will draw people closer to Jesus. I’m not always good at restraining my lips. I’m a rule follower to the nth degree and often to my own detriment. So when I see something not being done “right” I often feel the need to correct it.

“. . . But he who restrains his lips is wise. The tongue of the righteous is choice silver . . .”

Learning to restrain my lips is no easy task. And I don’t think it means we never speak up, but rather, we use wisdom about when to speak and when to stay quite, about what to say and what not to say, and how to say it. Our words are valuable and carry weight.

“The heart of the wicked is worth little. The lips of the righteous feed many, But fools die for lack of wisdom.”

Are my words feeding others? Even when I disagree wholeheartedly, do the things I say to others bring life or death? The Bible tells us that God is not “willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance” (2 Peter 3:9). And I have a role to play in that as a follower of Christ. Whether it be with my children, my spouse, the cashier that is taking too long, the political views others spew, or even behind the wheel (finger pointed firmly at myself), my words can destroy or build up. They can bring peace or division. They can point to Christ or away.

There’s an old saying “You may be the only Bible a person may ever read”, and while I’m not responsible for the decisions others make to follow Christ or not, I am responsible for bearing witness to Jesus as the Savior and Redeemer. Proverbs 18:21 says, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.” We cannot be careless, cutting, or conniving with our words. They are just too valuable.

The Vanity of Anxiety

“Unless the Lord builds the house, They labor in vain who build it; Unless the Lord guards the city, The watchman stays awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, To sit up late, To eat the bread of sorrows; For so He gives His beloved sleep.” Psalm 127:1-2 NKJV

“Unless the Lord builds the _________” fill in the blank. It doesn’t really matter . . . family, marriage, friendships, church, businesses . . . our lives as a whole . . . that’s “the house” we’re dealing with. Without God building and guarding it, all our work is for not.

I’ve been trying to write about these two verses for a couple days now. Two verses that encompass so much. Forming the words that convey what I’ve learned, am still learning, regarding them is not coming as easily as it usually does.

So many nights I wake up in the early morning hours, my mind racing with all the things . . . things that need to be taken care, questions about the present, the future, finances, decisions to worries about things that seem small in the daylight hours but huge in the darkest hours of the night . . .

I’ve always been a worrier. I can recall being five years old and laying in bed and worrying over both the most insignificant and sometimes, significant, to my young mind, things. My worries are no respecter of the actual legitimacy of the problem. But as I was reading these scriptures, I was, once again, reminded that it’s not our right, our privilege, or our job to worry.

The first verse of Psalm 127 tell us that “unless the Lord builds the house . . . unless the Lord guards the city . . .” then all of our worrying, our watching, our anxious thoughts are “in vain”. But it’s verse two that really caught my attention as I was reading the other morning, “It is vain” . . .

  • Vain – 1: having or showing undue or excessive pride in one’s appearance or achievements : conceited 2: marked by futility or ineffectualness : unsuccessful, useless vain efforts to escape 3: having no real value : idle, worthlessvain pretensions 4 archaic: foolish, silly (Merriam-Webster dictionary)

All of these definitions fit the bill for verses 1-2, but when I read those words “It is vain . . .” I was struck by the pride and conceit encompassed in the action of letting anxiety rule in our lives, in my life. Ultimately, it’s a control and trust issue, and it says to God that I think I know better, and I think I can maintain control of a situation by worrying rather than rolling it off onto Him. And bottom line? It’s a sin.

The Bible tells us to “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.” (Philippians 4:6 NKJV) That’s not a suggestion. It’s a command. “Be anxious for nothing . . .” As someone who has always been prone to anxiety, sometimes mild and other times so fierce it’s almost debilitating, I do not take those words lightly. I know how hard, almost impossible, it is to set anxiety aside, but if the Bible says to do it, then I have no doubt God has infused me with the ability, through the power of the Holy Spirit, to follow through. That’s not to say the feelings don’t come. They do. This week alone, my sleep has been interrupted repeatedly in the early morning hours, and in those moments I have a choice to make. I can pray, or I can worry. I can seek God, or I can be gripped by anxiety. I can “eat the bread of sorrows” or as the Amplified puts it “eat the bread of [anxious] toil”, or I can let God give “His beloved sleep”. The world may tell us, it’s not a choice, but it absolutely is a choice. It may not be an easy choice, and I’ll readily admit that this is a work in progress in my own life. I daily have to decide how I’m going to respond to all the things that could cause me to worry. I have to make the choice to give my worries, my fears, my anxieties to God and leave them there, and some days I’m better at that than others. But it’s a battle that I will continue to fight because the idea that I am in control or exert some sort of control by worrying is nothing more than illusion.

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Two Are Better . . .

If you follow me on Instagram, @courtneyscontemplations (you can click on my Instagram page on the right, and it’ll take you straight there), you’ve seen my posts about Eva Love. Even if you don’t follow me on Instagram, I’m sure you’ve seen posts about Eva Love. This precious little girl, that I’ve never met and don’t know any of her immediate family personally, has been heavy on my heart for the past couple weeks. Maybe part of it is because I’m a mama of an equally precious, rambunctious, life filled little girl, but I think it’s more. I wholeheartedly believe that the Holy Spirit is prompting every prayer, every whispered plea, and every loud cry regarding beautiful Eva Love. This is one of the functions for which the body of Christ was created. We were created to rally when one or more of our members is struggling and weak. We were created to lift up one another, to pray and stand in the gap and seek Christ on behalf of one another.

Over these past couple weeks, I’ve seen God’s people mobilize. I’ve seen His children at their finest. I’ve seen differences in theology and practice and denomination set aside to lift up this child and seek God’s face for her healing. And I have to wonder, why does it take a tragedy to get us to do this? Why do we argue and fight amongst ourselves more than we come together and pray and seek God’s face?

We live in a world that pushes against the things of Christ more with each passing day. A world where satan looks to bring attacks against the children of God more vehemently than ever before, and yet, we have dissension within our ranks. Yes, we are to hold one another responsible. Yes, we are to stand against sin and false prophets and false testimonies. Absolutely, unequivocally, yes, the bible instructs us on how to do that, but fighting about worship styles and worship songs and order of service and whether or not you lift your hands (or don’t)? All of that is a major distraction from the war that we can only win with Jesus by our side. And y’all if Jesus, 1/3 of the Holy Trinity, is your Savior, and you know without Him there’s no other way, no other way to heaven, no other way for forgivness, no other way to live both here on earth and after death, then we are on the same team, and we fight together not against one another.

So today, I’m asking you to put aside the petty differences that divide, and look to the One who unites. Not just in this fight, but in the daily fight against the enemy who wants to destroy. I am also asking you to hop over to the Instagram pages for the Sherbondy family (@dugansherbondy and @lindsayletters.co) and follow Eva’s story and pray for her complete healing. We, the body of Christ, were created to walk together, side by side, celebrating and supporting both on the mountaintops and in the darkest valleys that we face. We were never meant to do this alone.

“Two are better than one,
Because they have a good reward for their labor.
For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.
But woe to him who is alone when he falls,
For he has no one to help him up.
Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;
But how can one be warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.
And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

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Life Interrupted

22 And behold, one of the rulers of the synagogue came, Jairus by name. And when he saw Him, he fell at His feet 23 and begged Him earnestly, saying, “My little daughter lies at the point of death. Come and lay Your hands on her, that she may be healed, and she will live.” 24 So Jesus went with him, and a great multitude followed Him and thronged Him.25 Now a certain woman had a flow of blood for twelve years, 26 and had suffered many things from many physicians. She had spent all that she had and was no better, but rather grew worse. 27 When she heard about Jesus, she came behind Him in the crowd and touched His garment. 28 For she said, “If only I may touch His clothes, I shall be made well.”29 Immediately the fountain of her blood was dried up, and she felt in her body that she was healed of the affliction. 30 And Jesus, immediately knowing in Himself that power had gone out of Him, turned around in the crowd and said, “Who touched My clothes?”31 But His disciples said to Him, “You see the multitude thronging You, and You say, ‘Who touched Me?’ ”32 And He looked around to see her who had done this thing. 33 But the woman, fearing and trembling, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell down before Him and told Him the whole truth. 34 And He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace, and be healed of your affliction.”35 While He was still speaking, some came from the ruler of the synagogue’s house who said, “Your daughter is dead. Why trouble the Teacher any further?”36 As soon as Jesus heard the word that was spoken, He said to the ruler of the synagogue, “Do not be afraid; only believe.” 37 And He permitted no one to follow Him except Peter, James, and John the brother of James. 38 Then He came to the house of the ruler of the synagogue, and saw a tumult and those who wept and wailed loudly. 39 When He came in, He said to them, “Why make this commotion and weep? The child is not dead, but sleeping.”40 And they ridiculed Him. But when He had put them all outside, He took the father and the mother of the child, and those who were with Him, and entered where the child was lying. 41 Then He took the child by the hand, and said to her, “Talitha, cumi,” which is translated, “Little girl, I say to you, arise.” 42 Immediately the girl arose and walked, for she was twelve years of age. And they were overcome with great amazement. 43 But He commanded them strictly that no one should know it, and said that something should be given her to eat.” Mark 5:22-43 NKJV

Jairus came to Jesus desperate for a healer. His daughter was dying. She needed a miracle. Jesus immediately left what he was doing to go with Jairus to his daughter’s side. What relief Jairus must’ve felt in that moment. Jesus was going to heal his daughter. Jesus was coming to his rescue . . . to her rescue. Everything was going to be okay.

But then, as they were going, the woman with the issue of blood reached through the throng of people pressing in around Jesus and touched the hem of His garment. Jesus immediately stopped. His journey to the dying little girl was interrupted by this woman, and rather than continuing on, He stopped. He stopped to find out who touched Him. He stopped to seek out the one who had sought Him for healing.

Can you imagine what Jairus must have thought as this is all playing out? As a parent, I can only think that he was most definitely inwardly, and maybe outwardly, screaming, “This can wait Jesus! My daughter is dying!” And the truth is, it could’ve waited. The woman had been dealing with her issues for 12 years. How much harm could a few more hours do? But Jesus stopped and talked to her as if she was His only care in the world at that moment. Because we all matter to Jesus. Your problems are no bigger or worse to Him than my problems, and my problems are no more terrible than yours. Jesus cares about all of us, equally, without favoring one of His children over the other. Jesus allowed the interruption by the woman with the issue of blood. It wasn’t an unintentional distraction, but an intentional choice He made to stop and spend a few moments focused on her. It probably wasn’t more than a few minutes lost, but in the time it took to stop and talk with this woman, Jairus’s daughter died.

Jesus wasn’t phased by the news of the little girl’s death. He continued on as if she was still alive and waiting for His healing touch. Jairus likely felt such despair. What was this man going to do about his dead little girl? When Jesus reached the house, He asked why they were wailing and weeping, “the little girl is only asleep” he told them. And the people laughed. How ridiculous Jesus was. He stopped to deal with an unclean woman, a woman who had been sick and probably, ostracized for years. He allowed Himself to be interrupted. He knew the risk, and the little girl died as a result. But God . . . there is always a “but God” . . . when you think you’ve reached the end of your story, and you see a period, God sees a comma. Jesus walked right up to the little girl, took her hand, and said “Talitha, cumi . . . little girl, I say to you, arise,” and that interruption, that seemed so huge only moments before, became a non issue as the little girl rose up off her bed. The interruption that seemed like the end was only a pause in the story of the little girl’s life.

How often do we have interruptions in our journey and think it’s all over? We despair because the interruption we see seems more like final answer rather than a momentary pause. I find it interesting that this passage shares a commonality between the little girl and the woman with the issue of blood, a detail that seems somewhat insignificant yet draws their timelines together . . . 12 years . . . 12 years prior this little girl had been born, and while her family was celebrating the birth of their daughter, the woman started down the road of what would be 12 years of relentless suffering, both physically and emotionally. God knew where both of there journeys would culminate. None of this came as a surprise to Him. Our interruptions never do. He knew that on this day in history, their stories would collide, and their lives would be forever changed at the hands and the hem of the Savior.

Never think for a moment that God doesn’t see you in the interruptions of life. He’s working even in those moments when you think all is lost. God is not moved by these interruptions, and His plan is not changed by them either.

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Our Journey to Victory, Part 2 . . . Grief to Transformation

This post is the fifth in a series of posts about victory through Jesus, and “what if” the victory doesn’t look like we think it should. They can be found, in order, by clicking on each of these titles: The Victory, But What If, A Mirror, Dimly, and Our Journey to Victory, Part 1 . . . From Joy to Grief.

Grief is a weird thing. It’s equal parts terrifying, and awful, and also extremely necessary. When we go through a life altering loss, we need to grieve. It’s the way God made us, but it’s so very uncomfortable too. And like anything else, I tried to check off the stages of grief as if they were part of my “to do” list. Only, the stages of grief aren’t sequential. You don’t pass through one to reach another. Instead you bounce all around, back and forth, between the stages of grief. I had to reach a point in our loss where I learned to accept and sit in my grief, where I accepted it was okay to be mad . . . sad . . . whatever . . .

I was so angry in the midst of the grief, and God wasn’t immune to that anger, but instead of pulling away, I pushed in more. One thing I learned, through the ups and downs of grieving is God can handle our anger. Tell Him you’re angry. Tell Him you’re hurting. Tell Him you’re devastated. Just don’t turn away from Him. I prayed more, cried more, and sought Him more than I ever had before. And God never fails His children when they cry out to Him. Never. We may feel like He’s failed us, but thank goodness, our feelings do not define reality. It was in those days and nights of wrestling with the deepest grief I had ever felt, God brought very familiar scriptures to life in a whole new way.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,
And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” Isaiah 61:1-3 NKJV

These words, these scriptures, became my very life. I had no closure regarding the child that I thought was going to be mine. I had no idea what would happen to her or if she’d be safe or loved or cherished. But I knew, that the only path to healing was through Jesus. And not only did He, very slowly, bring healing, but He began to change my heart in ways I never imagined. I found myself shifting from crying out to Him from a place of deep pain to crying out to Him from a place of deep desire. And rather than asking for a perfect child, I found myself asking Him to bring us the child that needed a family more than anything. I found my heart being opened to needs that I never dreamed I’d be okay with.

Through pain, God transformed me. And after almost a year of daily praying for God to bring us our child, we received another referral. This time it wasn’t so pretty. Our little one wasn’t so neatly packaged. She wasn’t chubby and smiley. She was malnourished and terrified, but she was also beautiful and exactly what our hearts needed.

While, the referral was in and of itself a victory, and sometimes we do have victories that occur in a single moment in time, I’m finding that more often than not our victories aren’t static but found in our ever changing and growing through Christ. We continually have challenges to meet and overcome with our daughter, and bringing her into our home has made my knees hit the floor more and my reliance on Christ grow in ways I never imagined. I know more than ever that I cannot make it through this life without Him, and it’s in Him and Him alone that I have victory.

So no, our victory didn’t look like I thought it would. It’s so much more than I ever dreamed it would be, and the best part is, it’s not done. It’s still happening. With each new challenge, we find a new path to victory, a new chance for God to show Himself strong.

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Our Journey to Victory, Part 1 . . . From Joy to Grief

This post is the fourth in a series of posts about victory through Jesus, and “what if” the victory doesn’t look like we think it should. They can be found, in order, by clicking on each of these titles: The Victory, But What If, and A Mirror, Dimly.

“I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.” Psalm 16:8 NKJV

Andrew was three when we decided to pursue adoption. After praying for direction and talking at length with our adoption agency, we settled on adoption from Bulgaria. We knew that once we were registered with Bulgaria the wait for a referral would be at least three years. First, we had six months to get all of our paperwork in and our dossier submitted. Always one to see a deadline as something to be beat, I set about checking off each part of our paperwork as quickly as possible. Within five months our dossier was on its way to Bulgaria to be translated and submitted to the Bulgarian government for registration.

And then, with the exception of yearly updates, we waited. I’m very good at doing, and I’m equally terrible at waiting, but there was nothing to do but wait. So wait we did. We waited and prayed and praised for the victory we knew was to come.

Just over two and a half years after we were registered, I was driving home from my sister’s house one evening when Hillsong United’s “Oceans” came on the radio. As I listened to the words, “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders … Let me walk upon the waters … Wherever You would call me … Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander … And my faith will be made stronger … In the presence of my Savior …” I felt like God was telling me we were about to go on a journey that would require more faith and trust than we ever imagined. The very next morning, we received “the call” that would forever change our lives. Not only had we only been waiting for two and a half years, it was the referral of our dreams, a chubby, smiley, 14 month old baby girl. Fourteen months old! A baby which was virtually unheard of. The victory felt very real, and I was convinced that this was the journey God was talking to me about mere hours before.

A month after answering that phone call, Patrick and I were on a plane flying to Bulgaria to meet our sweet girl, and to say it was love at first sight would be an understatement. We fell in love with this sweet baby who was to be our daughter. For five days, we spent hours each day rocking and playing and holding her while she slept. Then, through tears, we handed her back to her caregivers to return home and finish our paperwork. Once again, we found ourselves waiting. Only this time we waited for a court date and ultimately, our pick up day.

As hard as it was to leave her, I had a goal in sight. I had boxes to check off, and plans to make, and preparations to undertake. So, while I desperately missed our girl, I knew it was just a matter of time. Then, on Friday, September 12th, we received a call that would turn our world upside down. A man claiming to be her biological father had filed for custody, and we were in danger of losing the referral. Our attorney in Bulgaria immediately left her family to travel to the city where our little girl lived to find out exactly what was going on. We spent the longest weekend of our lives waiting and praying for God to deliver her into our arms. How could He do anything less for this little girl who had been abandoned at birth? How could He do anything less for us? By Sunday night, I was completely, emotionally spent and could do nothing but sit anxiously waiting for news. It was in those dark hours of the night that I felt God telling me I needed to let go, and Monday morning brought the news I never wanted. Our referral had been pulled. We had a conference call with our stateside agency and our Bulgarian agency and were assured that they were actively pursuing another match for us. But I didn’t want another match. I wanted our girl.

The victory I expected had not come, and the grief and anger I felt was all consuming. I was mad at everyone involved from our agency, to our attorney, and straight up the ladder to God. I didn’t think for a millisecond that God had caused this catastrophe, but I was so angry that He hadn’t stopped it. How could He have allowed this to happen?

I recently saw a quote from Christine Caine, “Sometimes when you’re in a dark place you think you’ve been buried, but actually you’ve been planted.” I had no idea, in those darkest moments of my life, that God had planted me and was getting ready to grow me in ways I never imagined.

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A Mirror, Dimly

“When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.” 1 Corinthians 13:11-12 NKJV

Before I ever had children . . . before I was ever married . . . probably even before I met my husband, I knew somewhere, in the deepest part of me, that I would adopt someday. But had you asked me what that would look like, I wouldn’t have been able to give you a clear idea of what adoption would even mean in my life. It was just a desire that was there as far back as I could remember, and that desire was deeply intertwined with my desire to be a mother someday.

Fast forward many years, I was married, I was ready to be a mom, and the desire to adopt was buried beneath all of the worries and concerns of daily living. It’s not that I never thought about adoption. I did, but once I became pregnant with Andrew, I figured we would go down the road of having children the biological way, and maybe one day, in the distant future, entertain the idea of adopting. I just couldn’t see how adoption fit into my perfectly laid out plan.

Of course we all know that even the best laid plans . . .

I ended up having very serious third trimester complications with Andrew which resulted in an emergency C-section at 35 weeks gestation, and soon afterward, my doctor stood in my hospital room and explained to me that, yes, another pregnancy was possible but would be very high risk. And suddenly all of my plans were completely upended.

I’m normally not the type of person that pivots quickly from one direction to another, but in this instance, what should’ve brought me grief instead brought a new found sense of hope and purpose. Because that seed, that desire to adopt, that had been planted so many years before began to grow, and there was a clarity regarding adoption, that hadn’t been there even 24 hours before.

I don’t believe God does harmful things to us to teach us a lesson or lead us in a certain direction, but I do believe that He uses the things that happen to us, both good and bad, to mold us and grow us for His good. And I believe He knows. He knows the end from the beginning. I don’t know have all the answers as to why things happen, and I can’t always wrap my mind around exactly why God allows certain things. But I know without a doubt that He sees what we don’t, and He is good and does good.

Over 20 years ago, God planted the desire to adopt in my heart knowing that one day that dormant seed would come to life. It would be another three years before we decided to take the next step towards adoption, but Andrew’s premature birth started us down a path which would change our lives forever. It was to be the hardest, most beautiful, earth shattering, and life changing journey we would ever take . . .

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But What If?

In the last post, I talked about the four keys to victory: seek, believe, praise, and bless. But what if? What if the victory doesn’t look like we thought it would? What if the “victory” doesn’t meet our expectations? What then. Has God forsaken us?

“Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.” 1 Corinthians 13:8-12 NKJV

If God is love (1 John 4:8), and love never fails, then why do our victories not always look like victories to us?

First, we live in a fallen world. I’d be remiss if I did not say this. Jesus, himself, tells us in John 16:33 that we will have tribulations in this world, but to be of good cheer for He has overcome this world. If you live here on this earth, you will not escape trials and tribulations, but you can face them knowing that through Christ, you will be victorious. That may not look exactly how you think it should, and it may not happen on the exact timeline you think should. But in Him you have the victory always and forever. “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28) Not our purpose but His.

Second, we do not know what we do not know. The passage at the beginning is from 1 Corinthians 13, the infamous “Love Chapter”, but it is so much more. The bible is not a set of 66 separate, isolated books, but a collection of writings, spanning over 2000 years in time and penned by multiple authors, that was divinely inspired and intricately woven together by God. We know love never fails because 1 Corinithians 13 tells us so, and we know God is love because 1 John 4:8 tells us that. Both scriptures use the greek word “agape” for love . . . the perfect, sacrificial, unconditional love of God. And God never fails us. He sees us, not just our present or our past, but our future as well, and He knows what we need when we don’t even know ourselves.

I’m nearsighted. Since I was eleven years, I’ve worn some form of corrective lenses, but on the off chance that you catch me without my glasses or contacts, you’ll see me squinting, trying to make out faces and images. Without correction, I can’t see clearly. I see in a mirror dimly. I need help. I need guidance, or I will make a mistake, at best and possibly be hurt, at worst.

And we’re no different. We don’t see the full picture from beginning to end like God does. So often times the thing or things we think we want and need the most will bring us far from victory and lead us right down the road to defeat. And often when we feel like we are defeated that is where the victory is beginning.

In the coming days, I am going to share more about my own walk through some very hard places, and times where I cried out to God. I’m going to share about victory from a place of grief and defeat, and how He absolutely never left me or failed me.

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The Victory . . .

Rather than including an entire passage of scripture, I will be posting the scripture reference for you to read. Unless otherwise noted, I use the NKJV bible, but there are a number of different versions out there. If you do not have an actual bible on hand, no worries. Youversion is an awesome Bible app and Bible Gateway (linked here) will give you direct access to via your search engine. You can also look up multiple translations on both of those.

Scripture: 2 Chronicles 20:1-30

Background: At this point in history, the United Kingdom of Israel was split into two kingdoms, Israel and Judah, and Jehoshaphat was the fourth king of Judah.

As Chapter 20 of 2 Chronicles opens we find that a number of people groups have gone to battle against King Jehoshaphat. Verse two actually says “A great multitude is coming against you . . .”, and in verse three the Bible tells us “Jehoshaphat feared”.

I think we’ve all been here. Maybe not literally but without a doubt, figuratively. We’ve felt like all the odds are stacked against us, and no matter what we do, there is no way, in our own power, we’re going to win. We fear what may come upon us.

Fear is a powerful emotion. It can paralyze us. So what do we do when we’re faced with what appear to be insurmountable obstacles? Verse three tells us that “Jehoshaphat feared . . . ” but it in the same sentence it immediately gives us the answer to those fears. ” . . . and set himself to seek the Lord, and proclaimed a fast throughout all Judah. So Judah gathered together to ask help from the Lord; and from all the cities of Judah they came to seek the Lord.”

  1. Seek God – Verses 5-13 show us the people of Judah standing before God, from the youngest to the oldest, and crying out to Him. When you feel you are at your weakest, it is in this place that you’ll find yourself standing in the most powerful position. There is no place more powerful than the place of seeking God. When it looks like everything and everyone is turned against you, the first thing you need to do is to cry out to God. It removes the weight of the burden from your shoulders and places in squarely on the shoulders of the only One who can save you. There’s no special formula or blueprint for crying out to God. Sometimes you may not even have the words, and that’s okay. There is no shame in whispering or shouting the three simple words, “God help me”. Romans 8:34 says “Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us.” When you don’t have the words, Jesus does, and He knows exactly what you need. Just cry out to Him.
  2. Believe – God will answer. In verses 14-17 God answers the people of Judah. Twice He tells them not to fear for this is not their battle but His. Verse 17, in particular, speaks to this, “You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, who is with you, O Judah and Jerusalem! Do not fear or be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them, for the Lord is with you.” One of the hardest lessons, that I’m still learning, in this life is when to stand still and when to act. I’m a doer and a problem solver so when God tells me to stand still and let Him fight that can be really difficult for me. But you know what Jehoshaphat does? In verse 18, he bows his head to the ground and worships God. In a moment when he could be doing all the things, he does the only things that matters, he worships. Verse 20 goes on to tell us, “So they rose early in the morning and went out into the Wilderness of Tekoa; and as they went out, Jehoshaphat stood and said, ‘Hear me, O Judah and you inhabitants of Jerusalem: Believe in the Lord your God, and you shall be established; believe his prophets, and you shall prosper.’ ” Jehoshaphat’s belief came through seeking and worshipping God. Belief always comes through seeking and worshipping.
  3. Praise – Don’t wait to see the victory before you praise. Praise ahead of the victory. Verse 21-22, “And when he had consulted with the people, he appointed those who should sing to the Lord, and who should praise the beauty of holiness, as the went out before the army and were saying: ‘Praise the Lord, For His mercy endures forever.’ Now when they began to sing and to praise, the Lord set ambushes against the people of Ammon, Moab, and Mount Seir, who had come against Judah; and they were defeated.” Can you imagine how crazy this must’ve seemed to the enemies of Judah? Here they are coming into battle, and instead of drawing swords and shields, they’re praising and singing. More enemies can be been defeated in a moment of praise to God than in a lifetime of trying to fight our battles on our own.
  4. Bless the Lord – The passage goes on to tell us that their spoils were so great they could not carry them, and it took them three days to gather them. Yet, after all of that, in the middle of the frenzy of an overwhelmingly victorious battle, verse 26 says, “And on the fourth day they assembled in the Valley of Berachah, for there they blessed the Lord . . .”. It starts with God and it ends with God. He always sees us through, and when it’s all said and done, we need to bless Him for what He has done. Do not discount the importance of blessing God for the victory.

We all fight battles, both large and small. Your battles may not look like mine, and mine may not look like yours, and because of this, the directions God gives us while in that battle are not going to be exactly the same. His fighting for us will look different every time, and that’s why it’s so important to start by seeking God, cry out to Him and seek Him for direction and wisdom, and follow with believing, praising, and blessing.

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The writings and images contained within this site are the intellectual property of this writer unless otherwise noted, and may not be copied or used without express permission of the author.